Category Archives: just a story

this is just a sory about what i feel, think, or what i do

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Siang itu keadaanku saaaangaaaaaattt lapar, dan cuaca cukup panas. Entah kenapa kuputuskan untuk jalan kaki aja ke warung buat beli makan. mungkin udah ga kuat lagi menopang motor atau masak mie. #lebay

Jadi, sampai di warung, terjadi percakapan :

Ibu warung : “mati ya mbak…” (sambil nengok2 rumah sebelah yg kayaknya lagi rame)

Aku : “oh… iya ya bu? ” (dengan muka turut berduka, mengira orang di sebelah rumah dia ada yang meninggal, makanya rame2 di situ)

Ibu warung : “iya, tadi pagi. eh, yang di gang sebelah punya mbak udah kemaren kog ya? sekarang giliran gang ini yang mati”. (ngomongnya tetep pake senyum gitu, serem)

Aku : “eehh?”

aku dalam hati : “aaappppaaa? mati-nya bisa giliran per gang giituuuu??? haaahhhh… :o “

Ibu warung : “iya, mati lampu kan kemaren di situ?”

hoooooooooohhhhhhhhhh……… yang mati lampu tooh, kirain… (-___-)”

well, kita memang nunggu giliran saja ini dipanggil kembali pada-Nya. TAPI YA GA URUT GANG…!!!!! apalagi urut absen yang alphabetically sorted. apalagi urut ganteng. urut cantik. urut bau.

hedeh (-___-)”

time machine and software update

Time Machine

well, i am not gonna talk about the real time machine and a real software update, lol..

umm..most of us, in certain point, highly wanting a time machine, bring us back to the past where we think that we’re stronger. we’re more cool, and we’re seem better. Do we? wait… i dont think so. i think we were no better, tou…. it’s just about what we’re facing today is actually higher and harder than our past challenges. nah, when we forget to update our software in our soul, today’s challenge would feel just the same, but we feel that we are weaker. but no… actually we’re the same, no worse no better (maybe), but the challenges are different. it’s higher and harder.

so please, dont forget to update your “software”. not talking about the computer…

Human (My) Resilience [in mathematical view]

My resilience is not constant. It is change in time, in place, and many other functions. The graphic does not always use the positive gradient, sometime it might be negative, which means the value of “y” in “t(x)” is less than it is in “t(x-1)”. Sometime it seems like a polynomial graphics, with culmination(s) in many points.

My resilience is also a function of experience. Experience which others and I have, within my cognition. While the experience itself is a function of time, its graphic will use a positive gradient.  Well, it doesn’t mean that having a lot of experience makes us having a better reaction toward the world, but i am sure it will enrich and broaden our view as our brain is a growing neuron.

My resilience is a function of conditions. The ability in coping many situations might be different according to its conditions. It is the outer factor which influence my power. I think this function doesn’t have any graphic. It is a random function as a result of a lot of uncontrolled situations. One of the handling tips of this stochastic variable is always getting closer to GOD since it will always lead us to answers for all questions.

In conclusion, my resilience is a combination of those three  function above and also many other functions that i have yet written. So, how’s yours?

*anyway, it also shows limits and continuity :-D

(no scientific literature )

sunday morning at my corner

Lost..

today, let’s talk about lost..

It is one of God’s subjects for us to learn in having a lively life. you may cry a river for a “lost”, but you can never avoid it if you were destined to.

what if you lost a heart?

yea, it might be a big lost in your life. But let’s say… there will be a bigger lost than this. So keep your tears for later. don’t let it dry now.  u still may cry a river, but not an ocean..

what if you lost a love?

as long as you do not loosing The Highest Love, Love for The Creator,  It’s ok, dear brother.

Those are pieces of words to describe what we call “ikhlas” and “nrimo“.

PS. writing this, doesn’t mean that everything will be easy for me. “ikhlas” and “nrimo” is still a high and hard mountain to hike.. it’s a lifetime learning…

with luv,
Oct ’09

small chat tonight

tonight, me and Chan-chan (my friend in Dahai Camp, place where i am living now), were talking about several things and suddenly we came to a discussion about the maňana culture. The habit of procrastinating. Perhaps we do not realize that actually we are really procrastinating a lot. Instead of -do what you can do today- we’d rather to wait until tomorrow. why is that? Once i had a little discussion with my friend that commonly we’ve been spoiled by our friendly nature. we were told about our blue sky, our “green” land, our beautiful view, our natural resources, and many other beautiful things that we have (had??).
Then, we are agree that its not only Indonesia who have a maňana symptom, but all of the countries in the tropical belt. here is another example: as we only have two season, we do not have to prepare everything for winter, our time frame is relatively longer. Thus, we do not have to worry about tomorrow.
Different from countries in the northern and southern hemisphere, they put in their mind that they wouldn’t survive if they do nothing, and as a consequence from four season countries, they would better to prepare everything for winter. Otherwise they’ll die by the temperature. Hahaha…
Well, basically it still depends on the person itself.
So, which one you choose? or any other opinion?

ouch,

Love, pretty wonderfull and great. But it might be something that u dislike.. something that might even hurt you so bad.. something that might makes you drown, deep into the sea, swallowed by big blue whale, dont know how to survive, and u would die in there… or you would come up again as its feces. OUCH…!!!! still hurts…!!! When sometimes its a big bingo bango, a nice present for others, it still might hurts you.

well, there is a point of a broken hearted. GROW UP. Be StrOnGer. SmiLe even when you are criying. etc…etc… wanna add up some more…???

my otherside says “wake up girl..!!! you can do it..!! come on… wake up…!! build ur other dreams…!!!”

There is a quote from Alex Rover, a fictitious traveller, a fictitious hero in a film called Nim’s Island..

Be the hero of  your own story

oh ya, you can do it too… be the hero of your own story, at least dont be sad too much of a disappointment. Stand up even when your hopes all down..

_peace from dahai_

I am addicted

Today is the last holiday for this week and tomorrow i have to face my rutinity (again and again). Wake up early, breakfast early, go to the office at 07:15 a.m, and get back at 05:15 p.m. Struggling for not being killed by the rutinity..!!!!
I am addicted..!!! holiday addicted..!!! i am addicted to my hobbies (everyone does, i think). Addicted by blogwalking to your blog, addicted by googling with all keywords, addicted to something new, addicted to enjoy this aloneness (as i am introverted). Addicted to imitating some movie dialog Hi5 Emoticon, and bla..bla..bla..
tomorrow, I’LL print out the sentence “I hate LOVE MONDAY” largely in mind…!!! singing out loud the song of  “I LOVE MONDAY” Hi5 Emoticon
hahaha..
ah ya..!!! tommorow will be the first day to play  tennis since this 2 weeks off (for weather reason, huh).

anyway, i’ve run out of drug holiday, i shouldn’t  be that greedy for wanting anymore drug holiday, and lets  say…. alhamdulillah.. alhamdulillah for this nice holiday.. alhamdulillah for end up this holiday so i can start to work again,  start to produce something really worthy (get paid i mean, hahahahaha…*LOL*), and next thursday i should attend POP (pengawas operasional pratama) training which is issued that the training test is a trouble difficult.

the bottom line is….Alhamdulillah….